Jul 6th, 2021 - 7:14 PM

The tiredness slowly settled over her delicate, weak body. But the young girl still refused to sleep. Especially not when he started talking. She had never heard of a vampire before. It was a whole new world for her. And that's why it made her so extremely curious. Even if she wasn't happy that he had brought her back to life. But Jill knew she could kill herself again and again. But she would never jump off the bridge again. Because she still heard her bones break. A drug overdose would be a perfect death. Or just cut your wrists. All the blood was slowly draining from her body. She would get tired, she would have the same feeling as now. Because she hardly had any blood in her body. She would fall asleep and die. While Jill lay on the bed, she watched him. The needle pushed its way through her warm, pink flesh. The pricking of the needle was a very nice short pain. The pain kept reminding her of the sweet poison rushing into her veins.

"But every breath hurts. Every beat of my heartbeats. The seconds are like minutes to me. The months are like years to me. Life is like a nightmare for me. I am tortured by my own body. Every day. I am free when I am dead "the words came in a whisper from her lips. But then she saw a tear running down his cheeks. His tear was full of pain, hatred, and loneliness. Jill reached out to him and stroked the tear away with her finger. He probably didn't expect her next step, but Jill licked his tear off her finger. "You are special. You are a vampire. You are unique." the young girl put her hand on his. Her hand was cold and shaking. "A heart doesn't always mean that you love" Her blue eyes looked into his "I have a heart, but my heart is empty, black. It's just dead. Surrounded by a thick wall. But you "You're worth so much more than me. I'm just a weak Human!" with her thumb she stroked the back of his hand "Don't save my life. Don't waste your strength on me. I don't know how you got me back. But I'm not worth it" Her eyes closed. Her body got heavier and heavier. Her heartbeat was slower and slower and then she slept.

It took a lot of hours until she woke up and was alone. She didn't know where she was, she didn't know what had happened. Her whole body was still covered in blood. Every fiber of her body wanted the sweet poison. Her senses wanted to be fogged. The voices in her head should finally fall silent again. With her hands, she tried to remove the blood from her body. "This is not your blood. You killed the man who saved you. It is his blood. You are a murderer" that is exactly what the voices told her. Her blood boiled and her heart pounded hard against her chest. But because she was extremely panicked, she let herself fall to the floor. She rolled under the bed and lay there. Even when she heard the footsteps and heard the maids looking for her, she didn't say a word. She lay with her cheek on the carpet. Her eyes were wide open. Her pupils were wide open. She stared at the carpet. Then she saw a lot of shoes. It was his and his maids. Suddenly he went to her on the floor. Her eyes stared into his.

Jill shook her head. She didn't want to come out. But then she heard the word heroin. The word echoed in her head. "Really?" her question came in a whisper from her lips. And then she slowly crawled out. No one had ever given her the heroin before. She kept pushing the needle into her skin and the sweet poison into her veins. Why did he want to do it? And how much would he give her? But what if it was mixed heroin? "He wants to kill you. Take the heroin and get killed" Jill nodded after hearing the voices in her head "Why do you want to give it to me?" she asked and put her arms around her petite body. The maid came in and went to Jill. "I made a hot tub for you. When you're done here, call me. I'll help you wash. You will get new clothes and something to eat. The Lord has everything for you prepared you "she said and left the room. "lord?" she asked confused. But Jill also heard that he wanted to hold her. In the rocking chair. But nobody had touched her until now. Nobody hugged her.

The last time was with her mother. Nobody was allowed to touch her. A lot of men have tried to touch her. Even when she was high, many men wanted to rape her. But Jill managed to fight back and run away again and again. She wasn't used to being close. She no longer knew what a hug felt like. But she wanted the heroin. "I want the heroin," she said. Her gaze crossed the room and stuck to his body "I need the heroin, please" Her words came almost pleadingly from her lips. "But can't I sit here?" she asked and sat down on the bed. She also wanted to get rid of the blood from her body, but the heroin first. Only then would she be fine again."Please," Jill held out her arm to him. At the crook of her arm, she had a lot of punctures from the needle. Every day she cut a needle in her skin. She needed the heroin every day. But that wasn't all she took. She also used other drugs. Ecstasy, cocaine, and a lot more.

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Day 5 Val

Jul 8th, 2021 - 7:14 PM

" " val was not one  who was use to having someone around who wanted death as much as him" it was something very new for him sometimes the pain would never end and it would be none stop at times " the pain was deeper in his mind " he could dream of all the hate he had in his life and then there was this young women who was the same as him just human and not a vampire " what could he do to save her from ever falling and soon as the needle hit her arm he knew it was going to feel like drugs going in to her body" so he added a numbing tip to help relax her mind and body that way she could be at pace " because if he had to heal her next time it would have to be by his fangs because the gods would not let him bring someone back again " they give him one wish every vampire moon it was that night it was a full vampire blood moon and it was at the time " he was deep in mind and could not think much more of what he could do even with his blood all over her nuded body" he never once looked at her lower parts or breast it was forbidden because he was one of them men who was true to who he was ''

" he placed his hands on hers " when she took his " he could feel her heart racing why " she whispered  " val heard each word the young women had said" and looked down closing his eyes " when she touched his head" and said under his deep breath" " you are just as lost as me and your not worthless " you can be a strong as you let yourself and next time i will have to do something i don't want to but if i have to i will so you living matters because i wish to know more about you and understand your mind a little" just then he saw her eyes had already been close " he knew she saw his vampire side and even tasted his tears " " He looked down at her bed sided and kisses her soft cold hand " and whispered sleep tight ~" he stood up and walked over to the table and set when all the maids had  come in and took her away " it was a flash back he would always remember in his mind it would never get lost "' he was a the keeper of pain and hell that came with it all it was way deeper in mind then it was looking for her and he knew the only way he could really help break her mind free of some of her pain was by giving her a little poison from time to time and it was going to be hell to help her break from it but he do what he could to help her as much as he could"".

"' he wonders through that house that night hunting her down and went through each room" but could not find her so he went to the other room and started his vampire night "val had the maids get the "bloodletting started so he could add new blood to vampire body" sometimes it was to feel himself up so he could be ok and not be sick all the time" it was right then he heard the young women's voices in his head why you save me I am a nightmares' who can't help but to tortured myself your worth so much more than me. I'm just a weak human " val hated that feeling when he heard their words it was like a dagger in his chest and he could feel it even in deep mind "' he knew she was not worthless and there was more he could do to help the young lady but " he also had to find away to help himself from being as lost as he was" he pulled himself from his mind and open his eyes" and wonder for a little" before he had the maids remove the iv's from being out in the storm that night " he stood himself up and knew already where she was it was the one places as a kid he run to when his father was being an asshole to him" he looked under the bed and that's when his eyes went to hers " his glowing vampire's eyes locked on hers and said" shh it's ok I won't hurt you now come out of there.

" val had never ever even let any women close to him let along had anyone ever touch him " he was what  they called very picky and was not like most men he would not ever ask for sex because he fear they run from him because his vampire ways " his mind would always close when a women would even get close to him it was  like 100 knife running through his body even at times it was so scary to let a soul near him because his fang would flash and they run for there life it worried him but " he wanted to do right so even if she saw his fangs he could have to stop the urge from biting her with his fangs but for some reason the first time she was in his arms his fangs never came out was it odd for him not to want to case so much pain to anyone or was he there to do what he had to keep her safe " in his mind he could here his mother and father saying just go for it son fuck her life up like yours she will just hurt you once she has what she wants and have to live with the pain and gut like you "' foolish child you wont do that to any soul""  he shacked his head again and that when he hared them say my lord he and the way she looked very confused ' he looked down and said" i am a count the maids call me by lord " and please do not freak out the drugs will calm you down and i will let you bath a lone  ..

' he placed the heroin on a spoon and heated it up' and placed held the needle and sucked up " placing the needle in her arm" and soon as the blood pushed in he knew he had hit the vane and pushed it in to her skin" and said" i give you 12 cc so this should do for a little " come now child lets take you to the hot bath and ill have the maids leave the room" i wont witch you bath ill be by the door and setting on the floor  so you can talk if you wish "he knew it was a synthetic  something val would take himself at times to let him  mind think right ' there were alot of things they had in conmen but the harder part was understanding how someone would ever want to die more then him even then " he wanted to let go and he could end his pain just like that just picking up his phone and asking for the end by each witch but he was not that far gone or was he getting closer to his breaking point ' he hidden his pain in is mind and through his tears only would truly show how far gone he was .. he said in his mind "

plâng pentru că urăsc plâng pentru că sunt pierdut plâng pentru că sunt mult pierdut ce mai trebuie să fac pentru a-mi pierde mintea "sau las doar această durere să-mi stăpânească sufletul ..Translate i cry because i hate i cry because i am lost i cry because i am to far lost what more do i have to do to loss my mind " or do i just let this pain take over my soul..~~

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Day 6 Jill

Jul 8th, 2021 - 11:28 PM

She had never done anything like this before. Just wipe the tear-off someone's cheek and lick that tear off her finger. But Jill was different and she had a special connection with him. He had brought her back to life and she had his blood in her veins. But that was something she didn't know. She only felt this special connection to him. Jill had no confidence. She saw no meaning in her life, but she kept trying to tell other people the meaning. Just as with him. She told him he was special and that he should be proud of it. While she was just a broken girl. Lonely, weak, and sick in the head. But maybe that was why he could understand her so well. Because he was like her. So much pain and loneliness So much hatred and so great was the desire to die. Jill felt his hand on hers before she finally closed her eyes and fell asleep. Due to the spell he had cast, she couldn't defend herself and had to give up and give her body what it needed. And that was sleep.

Very slowly she came out from under the bed. Everything was strange. And there were too many people around her. Him and all of his maids. Jill wasn't feeling well. And in such situations, she always ran away. But she didn't even know where the exit was. The young girl gave the strange man her hand so that he could help her stand on her legs. But she immediately withdrew her hand and put her arms around her petite body. He got her full attention when he started talking about Heroin. If he were to stand in front of her and show her his fangs, she would not be afraid. She would stand in front of him and cut her throat with a sharp object. So that he would have no choice but to drink from her throat and suck the last of the blood from her body. So much was her desire to die, to be free at last. But now she was alive and she thought it was a curse. Her life was a curse. That voice in her head was a curse. "Why do you want to give it to me?" she asked and looked at him while he put a spoon on the table. No one had ever given her the heroin before. She always did it alone.

But that should be something else now. Jill had no idea what this heroin was exactly, but it didn't matter to her. All she wanted was the gif in her veins. "Give it to me" came in a whisper from her lips. Jill held out her arm to him. He could see all the punctures on her arm. And then she felt the needle in her skin. It was a strange feeling that she couldn't do it herself. The sweet poison immediately rushed into her veins and it immediately spread throughout her body. She couldn't feel it yet. Had she taken it alone, she would have taken more. But it was better than nothing. A soft and comforting sigh came from her lips as he pulled the needle out of her skin again. A small plug of blood came out of the puncture. With her tongue, she licked away the drop of blood. Jill was waiting for the effect, which hopefully would happen quickly. "I want to be alone in the bathroom," she said and looked at him. She didn't want his maids with her either. She wanted to be alone and wash alone. Because the blood should get off her body. Jill followed him and his maids "Why do they call you Lord? Because you're a vampire?" she asked curiously. She also had no more doubt that he was a vampire.

Because no one could have brought her back to life. No one could have let her bones heal so quickly. And then they got to the bathroom. The tub was full of warm water and a lot of foam. The room was lit by candles. It should have a relaxing atmosphere. "If you need something, you can call us. We are close by. Nobody will come in here if you don't want to" said the maid and put a towel on a chair. "Come on Lord, we'll leave her alone" The maids turned and left the bathroom. To make the girl feel safe, they closed the door. Jill was alone in the bathroom now. The foam smelled of roses. She slid her hand through the foam. Then she got naked and got into the bathtub. The water was very pleasant. The young girl sat down in the bathtub and leaned her head on the edge. The water immediately washed the dry blood from her body. Her body was cleared of all dirt. A low sigh came from her lips. And then she closed her eyes to enjoy the moment a little.

The girl let herself slide down so that her head was under the water. Now her hair has also been cleaned from the dirt. Every pore on her body was now clean. Jill had her head even further under the water. "The poison will paralyze you. You will not be able to move anymore, but your thoughts will be clear. You are trapped in your own body" The voice in her head was very loud. "Your muscles are getting lame" Jill's eyes widened under the water. The heroin in her body was starting to work. Suddenly the voice in her head grew lower, but the panic in her body increased. Suddenly she felt like she was in a black hole. Her body wasn't used to this heroin yet. A lot of emotions went through her body. Among other things, because the Herion was partly made of his blood and she could feel his emotions. The young girl was high. Her eyes were red. Suddenly she got out of the bathtub. Her body was wet, but it was also covered with foam. Just as she was, she ran along the long corridor. She found him in the last room. He sat on a chair and a maid was with him. "you let me feel it" she whispered. Without another word, she went into the room. Naked as she was, the girl sat on his lap. She curled up in his lap. She got his pants and shirt wet. The maid took his blanket and put it over her body. Then the maid left the room, leaving Val and Jill alone.

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Day 6 Val

Jul 9th, 2021 - 10:55 PM

" there was something just as special  about the young lady' the way she had talked to him that night he could feel every inch of pain she had been through he had been through as much as she had but it was hidden through his tattoo and his marks on his body his pain would only show a little at a time because val knew in his own twisted mind he was hated and wanted to end everything but why would he so they could be right or could they win the battle he was fighting even with the deep depression it was a battle he had to fight on his own sometimes " val had never had anyone around even his own mother who watched him fall laughed at him like everything that happen to him was because of what he had done as a kid they remined him he was never welcome because he was so mean " when really if they just give him and hug he would have loved them more then anything but yet they never tried with him " val had been a  lost cost but one who had been so broken and lost " so when he saw the young women he knew she had been through hell even if he had to take some of her pain away to ease it a little he would do it "' but what cost would it be on him would it take on him would it be his own down fall or would he let her break a part of his walls he held up so tight for over 200 years ...

Val had listen to her word asking him why he was going to give her the drug she needed herion but val said nothing at that point his mind went in to thinking mood and it was so hard for him to stop thinking of words to till the young lady" but at the same time his  mind was being pulled in to a deep sleep again ' the sounds of his dagger stabbing his mother heart and letting the poison run through her body was a never ending feeling it was when in his mind " she woke up and set his own body on fire with her eyes" the pain and tears moved down his faces the pain he could feel on his own body" his mother yelling your never worth anyone time son you should just give up and walk that path and die for me son come home so we may hunt you down and ended your suffering like you did us'' val pulled himself out of it  and mumbled you want to know why its easy i want you to be safe and if you die again i will have no choice but to turn you to keep you alive even with a little blood in your body i can do it " 

he " placed the needle in her arm and give her a little but he had more with him to help with her pain" he knew she would be ok and he had plan on helping her ease the pain a little " he knew by giving her a little at a time he would not have to have her kill her self and that was why he give her a little bit" if he give her touch much it could kill her " so he was safer as he could and by giving her what she needed he knew she would not get sick from taken so much ""~~ he looked up ~  they call me lord because i am a count i was born  back in 1492  to my mother and father Countess Ariana and count Mathis warwick i was there first son  and the maids always called me young lord when i was a kid and when i got older i got the rank of count witch is the highest ranking a vampire can be given' so when they call me lord its because i am a count val looked at her and showed his fangs  to give her know reason not to believe him~  he walked her along the hall and headed to the bath room door and handed her a little " necklace and said" this was made for your outfit  my maids work hard for me please enjoy your bath " he bowed his head and left the room..

' val had worried the whole time but as he would always do"he would  walk in to one of his rooms and relax on his black oak rocking chair lay his head down his eyes were blood shocked from everything very weak at times but he was ok ~ he looked at the time and knew it was taken too long but she told him she was fine " if she wanted to run the doors were open if she wanted to take anything to sell val would just go to the old vampire shop and replaces it there was nothing as a count he could not get even the two  pink pills he had in his jacket  pocket  " something he would give her if she started to feel more pain even if he would cut himself it still was just going to releases very little he had to feel the twist of the dagger in his chest  the pain was such a relaxing feeling and he still had been feeling relaxed from the bloodletting so the pain was not even that bad at that time '' he looked up at the maid" and ask if she could get him a glass of blood wine " she bowed her head and walked away from the room soon returning with his blood wne with to drops of blue goddess blood for his likely something many vampires hated was the bidder taste of a goddess blood but val did it was because the spell that had been put on his body was from a goddess 

" val had been in the room she left him in " and he was reading a spell book trying ti fine away to break the spell but sadly it would cost him way to much to do that even his life " but he knew if he took his own life  there be soul in the world to help this young lady get free of everything she had been through " he handed the book over to his maids and said i am done with it you may go if you wish " he watched one of the maids leave and the other held on to his glass of blood wine " he took two more drinks ' and he heard the young women say you let me feel and shortly after his shirt and pants were wet cover in water"' val looked up at her" and watched the maids cover her body up" he placed his arms along the side of her hair pulling it away from her face" and wave the maids to go and they left " he looked back and said' one thing i learn i can not save you from all your hurt but i can do as much as i can my pain is so deep a twist of a dagger does not help me at times "' i help you because you are truly special young lady " i can feel your pain and hate but if i help you maybe just maybe i did something right for once even when i fall i have never had a soul pick me up helping  you was one of the things i have never done for a human soul just don't kill yourself on me i do not want to turn you '.